What My Parents Think About My Positions Politically And What They're Doing to Help Democracy

 

 

Every so often, indirectly and sometimes directly, I mention my parents in my writing. My father is 85 and my mother is 83. They're both at the age where the body starts to fail them and their mental capacities are not what they once were but they'll still very sharp on certain subjects, to the point I would trust their opinions on today's politics infinitely more than 90 to 95 percent of the people on sites like this one.

If this offends the sensibilities of the readers on this site or elsewhere, I'm used to that and have an incredibly thick hide. The truth is, even as a teenager I always trusted the opinions of people much older than me and got along with them far better than people my own age.  I was always raised to respect my elders and betters out of basic courtesy and to hear people out even if I disagreed with them, styles have essentially expired because this generation thinks it knows everything because it can use an iPhone and their parents can't.

Just to be clear my parents do  have iPhones and will use them to look things up online but its basically to refresh their often failing memories. I'll use it for the same purposes which is basically research. Neither of us are using it as a replacement for education and all kinds of information and we certainly don't believe that just because you see something on YouTube its gospel. Indeed my parents have no idea how to use Twitter or TikTok or Instagram and I have assured them they are the lucky ones on this planet, not the ones who refresh it every minute of every day.

There are some areas in which I disagree with my parents as well as somewhere they are well behind me in certain areas of culture but at the end of the day I still trust them more than the people on the Internet. Like Farmer's said, they know a thing or two because they've seen a thing or two. And that essentially applies to politics today.

Now I should mention that my parents, like me, are lifelong Democrats. We've occasionally voted for Republicans in some elections – my father refused to vote for Carter in 1980 because of his disgust at handling the hostage crisis, for example – but we're loyal to the party.  Both of them were part of left-wing environments – my father was a law professor;  my mother was raised in a household where her parents were actually Communists at one point – but they've always been fine with the Democratic Party as it is. Neither is thrilled with the direction the Republicans have taken under Trump and they are, like so many people concerned about the country at large in recent years, but they've never really gone in to the complete left-wing agenda that is held by Bernie Sanders and AOC the way that so many other progressives these days they have. They may disagree with me about how much of a problem they are to the Democratic Party as a whole – we've had some lively debates on the subject – but they are based in reality in a way I'm really not convinced so many of the people who call themselves progressives are either in journals or in film.

My father, because he is a historian, has often tried to look at so much of this in terms he can understand. For a while when I referred to these people as 'progressives' he couldn't understand why this was bad because of the historical context. To him "Progressive' refers to the Progressive Era between the 1890s and 1914 when both the Democratic and Republican party had a progressive wing and where left-wing parties such as the Populist and TR's Progressive Party held sway with the electorate. In his mind the Progressives had been responsible for amendments leading to the direct election of Senators, the Income Tax and giving women the right to vote as well as the Presidencies of TR and Woodrow Wilson.

When I told him that, in fact, AOC and the Justice Democrats were more in line with the Socialist Party that Eugene Debs led during that period then Progressives as he knew it he instantly saw what I was driving at and agreed with me almost immediately that in fact Bernie has more in common with Norman Thomas than Bob LaFollette. We've been able to talk on that level ever since.

When I visited them last week and the discussion turned to the midterms as well as an update on my work for the Peltola campaign as always he had encouraging words. He told me he hadn't caught up with my blog in recent weeks and I assured him it was perfectly fine; at this point I'm so prolific in my writing if he ever tried to make hard copies of it (which he will occasionally make printouts of because like me he wants a physical record of things) he'd drown in paper. We both chuckled at that.

When we talked about whether I should share some of my writing with family friends, some of whom are more left-wing then them, he warned me that my criticisms of the left, despite being in good faith, might bother them. I joked that in many ways I'm more progressive then many actual progressives. I agree with 90 percent of what the left stands for and what they write about on this blog and because of that I want it to become a reality. Where I differ is how.

My father and I are in agreement that elections are referendums on how the country wants to go and both of us do agree with  Churchill's definition of democracy. I told him what I've send in this blog numerous times. If Americans truly wanted the agenda of the Justice Democrats or DSA in the aftermath of Trump's election, they have had five election cycles to vote for candidates to back it and a party that wants it. And given the results of those candidates in the last five cycles (which I've repeated before ad infinitum and won't do so here) it is very clear that the electorate doesn't want what the progressives are selling. And since the people have made their opinion clear I believe it is incumbent on the Democratic Party to go to the center rather then more to the left.

My father couldn't disagree with me on that. Because whenever I have presented him with the facts and figures and statistics, he accepts that as reality. To be clear he also follows every Supreme Court decision, every act of legislation that Congress does and watches the news. He is very informed. He doesn't like what the conservatives have done to America in the 21^st century but he can't argue that Americans  would prefer the progressive agenda because there's no evidence say they do besides the occasional poll. He reads the same magazines and papers I do and like me he has empathy and sympathy for what the left wants. But he knows the voters have a very specific way of telling you what they want and he's not going to disagree with them because AOC or Mamdani have millions of followers on TikTok.

As for my mother, well, she's always been more active in politics then me. In 2023 she wrote hundreds of postcards for elections in the Virginia Statehouse which ended up working out rather well for them. Now earlier this year, she agreed to write 100 postcards to voters in Michigan urging them to vote in the next election.

I've actually got one in front of me right now:

 

Thank you for being a voter! When will you vote in the Tuesday November 3^rd election? Please plan ahead! Thank you!

 

Again my mother's 83. Her hands are shaky. Her coordination's not great. In a few cases she made mistakes and she actually bought white out to erase some of her errors. And because my parents are going on a trip to Europe this week, she was going to miss the deadline to mail them out, which is tomorrow.

So when I saw my parents this Thursday she asked me and my father to apply stamps to the 89 postcards she'd written and asked me to mail them tomorrow. I agreed to both without a thought. So we spent twenty minutes doing just that.

To be clear my 83 year old mother handwrote 89 postcards urging people in Michigan to vote in the next election. And because she thought the speech was a little dry, she ended each postcard with 'Thank you!" because she knows courtesy matters.

Now she has no illusions this will make much of a difference in the Michigan's elections for Senate or Governor this cycle in the grand scheme of things. I don't know what she thinks of Abdul El-Sayid or some of the more far left Michigan candidates running for Congress. The point is she was concerned about America and she wanted to do something, however small, to help in a way that might be substantial. It does kind of raise the bar a bit for the rest of us.

Tomorrow morning I will do right by my parents and drop the postcards that my mother has painstakingly written and that we all stamped in the mail and send them on their way to Michigan. Then that evening I will do my most recent phone banking for Alaska – Peltola for Senate, JKT for Governor, Bill Hill for Congress. It will represent the peak level of the Morris household in the fight for democracy in America which will conclude on election day when we cast our votes for Tom Suozzi a Democrats in one of the swing districts in play.

Will this things lead to the Democrats taking back Congress? We'll see. Will it make America a better place? Hard to know. But that's not the point. The point is the work, the point is that we tried to do something of substance, even if we failed and even if we never know we made a difference.

My family knows that you don't solve the problems facing the country by getting followers or creating content. You do it by doing the long, messy, frequently unsatisfying work of trying in small and unnoticeable ways to make America better. You knock on doors and have them slammed in your face. You make phone calls and get cursed out. You write postcards until your hand hurts and then you write some more. And you do all of it knowing that are no guarantees, no certainties. But you keep doing it because that's the point of democracy.

 I'll actually add a challenge. Until someone on this site or a left-wing journal comes up with a better one, until they come up with a way to make the majority of Americans accept it, until they come up with a way to put in place on day one and not miss a beat when they dispose of this one, then I'm going to keep doing my part for American democracy. It is the worst form of government, except for all the others. So until you guys come up with that alternative, me and my family and millions of other Americans will keep doing our part for this one. If you call us suckers and sheep, well, we've been called worse by better.

Yankees vs. Red Sox Part 3: Hell Freezes Over

 

 

In 2004, as Yogi famously put it, it was déjà vu all over again.

The was between Boston and New York had begun even before spring training when Alex Rodriguez, already considered one of the greatest players in baseball, became a free agent. The Yankees and Red Sox opened their pocketbooks and the Bronx beat Beantown again, this time offering a ten-year $250 million contract. It was classic Steinbrenner and it pissed off everyone in baseball, not just Boston, but that was the game.

The AL East was a repeat of the war of the previous year, this time with even more bench clear brawls and all players openly seething. For the first time as a fan and a viewer I saw just how visceral that contempt was between the two franchises and particularly given how last year had turned out, it became real to me in a way it had only been figurative from all the books and TV clips I'd seen.

I was increasingly becoming immersed in my passion as a TV critic, though I was still more than five years before making my first semi-professional attempts. I remember I was distracting during the early days of the postseason with the new fall schedule, particularly ABC's Sunday night lineup of Desperate Housewives and Boston Legal. I'd also been watching the third season of The Wire which, in those pre-streaming days I tended to watch on Monday nights. I was following most of my regular shows such as Scrubs, half of what was on the WB and much of CBS's lineup of procedurals.  And at the time the postseason on baseball was divided between ESPN and Fox with the American League series on Fox during that period.

So during October I was basically watching TV with one hand on the clicker; checking the scores between commercials of one show or the other. That hasn't changed in twenty years until the World Series.  My mother was following this because once again the Yankees had the best record in the American league, going 101-61, once again the best record in baseball. This time the Red Sox were 98-64 which was the second best record in baseball and third only behind the St. Louis Cardinals who'd gone an impressive 105-57. For the third consecutive year the Yankees faced the Minnesota Twins and once again they went through them, albeit in 4 games instead of 3.

Boston was up against the Anaheim Angels, two years ago the World Champions and now back in the ALCS. In Anaheim the Red Sox trounced Boston both times with Curt Schilling winning Game 1, 9-3 and Pedro winning Game 2, 8-3. They went back to Fenway for Game 3.

I remember that game vividly. The Red Sox were ahead 6-1 going into the top of the 7^th. Then the Angels loaded the based with nobody out. Then Timlin walked in a run to make it 6-2. Then Vladimir Guerrero hit a grand slam to tie the game and Fenway went quiet.

At that moment I was truly a Red Sox fan in my soul. Because even though the game was tied I could see just how this would play out. The Angels would take the lead in the next inning, the Red Sox would lose the clincher, all the momentum would go out of them and Anaheim would make an incredible comeback. And considering that Boston had crushed Anaheim's hopes in a similar situation 18 years earlier there would have been a sad poetry to it.

That feeling was maintained even though the Angels didn't score and the game went into extra innings. I didn't know that there was one big difference between 2003 and 2004 and his name was David Ortiz.

In the tenth Johnny Damon single. Pokey Reese hit into a fielder's choice. Manny Ramirez struck out. Mike Scosisa then took Franciso Rodriguez out and brought Jarrod Washburn in to pitch to Ortiz. The man who was about to become known to the world as Big Papi hit a two run homer to win the ALDS for Boston.

So for the second straight year the Red Sox were facing the Yankees in the ALCS. Like I said, déjà vu all over again.

Whatever hopes I had for Boston beating New York went out the window in Game 1. Curt Schilling had gone 6-1 in the postseason and I remembered how much he'd owned the Yankees when he pitched for Arizona. He was up against Mike Mussina. The scene was set for a pitcher duel, so naturally it became a blowout.

Schilling sustained a torn tendon against the Angels and was ineffective. The Yankees took an 8-0 lead as Mussina pitched 6 perfect innings. Bellhorn' spoiled the party and the Red Sox managed to get 5 in the seventh. They closed it to 8-7 but then they brought it on Mariano and hope died. The Yankees finished 10-7.

Game 2 was a pitchers duel between Pedro and Jon Lieber with the Yankees finally winning 3-1.

Game 3 was scheduled for Friday but there was a rain out. The next day I was sleeping over at a friends house and only occasionally looked at the game. I spent most of it wishing for a flood in what could have been called the Boston Massacre had the term not been more famously used in 1978. The Yankees won 19-8.

I didn't read was sportswriter Bob Ryan wrote in the Boston Globe but I would have agreed with it a hundred percent:

They are down, 3-0, after last night's 19-8 rout and, in this sport, that is an official death sentence. Soon it will be over, and we will spend another dreary winter lamenting this and lamenting that."

Which was the logical reaction. The baseball postseason had existed for 100 years and in that century not a single team had ever come back from a 3-0 deficit to win a seven game series.  And this wasn't any team. This was the Red Sox, a team who had spent the twentieth century finding ways to snatch defeat from the jaws of victory. And against the Yankees? The winningest franchise in baseball history? Who'd won six pennant in eight years? The franchise that had provided Bucky F---Ing Dent and Aaron F---ing Boone?

No. Get the Fenway organist to prepare a bevy of funeral marches. This was done. Pay no attention to that long-haired idiot Johnny Damon, he doesn't know the first thing he's talking about.

I know that Game 4 was the following day. I was watching Sunday night broadcasting – Desperate Housewives, Boston Legal – and around 11 pm I finally tuned it. At which point it was over.  The Yankees were up 4-3 and Mariano was on the mound in the 9^th.  So what if he walked Kevin Millar?

I had no idea who Dave Roberts was before Game 4. Nor did I know he'd been trained in baserunning by Maury Wills, who'd once told him one day he'd have to steal a base with the entire world watching. Roberts met the challenge and stole second. Bill Mueller hit a single and Rivera for what was only the second time in my years of watching him blew a save. The first time had been Game 7 of the Yankees-Diamondbacks World Series.

The game was tied 4-4. I watched the next three innings from my couch with my parents. Paul Quantrill had come into relief. Manny Ramirez singled. Ortiz hit the ball:

"Going back at the wall, we'll see you back her tomorrow night!" I remember the broadcaster saying. (I can't recall if it was Tim McCarver or Joe Buck.)

They'd staved off elimination in miraculous fashion. Still it was a deep hole.

Game 5 began at 5:11, less than sixteen hours after Game 4 ended. It was Mussina versus Martinez, a rematch of Game 2. The Red Sox took a 2-o lead early in the game but the Yankees would come back to take four runs in the sixth. Once again the bullpen couldn't hold it. Ortiz led off the eighth with a home run against Tom Gordon. Millar walked. Unbelievably Roberts came in again. He went to third on Trot Nixon's single and Varitek tied the game with a sacrifice.

The game went fourteen innings and I remember watching most of them the same way every single viewer did: with my heart perpetually in my throat. Every inning it seemed one team or the other had a chance to take the lead: every inning the other throttled it.

Finally after what I assume was the fourteenth inning stretch. Damon and Ramirez both walked. Ortiz came up with two outs. The at bat was epic: ten pitches and everyone of them you could feel the Red Sox catch their breath. Finally Ortiz singled the center:

Tim McCarver: "He didn't do it again, did he? Yes he did!"  Fenway fans started chanting "Who's your Papi?"  And from that day to this David Ortiz has never had to buy a drink in Boston.

Remarkable, astounding. But the Red Sox were still down 3 games to 2. And they had to clinch the last two games in Yankee Stadium. Where everything had melted down for them last year.

Now I have to say regardless of his political views, Curt Schilling should be in the Hall Of Fame. It's not just that he was a great pitcher; it's that even before 2004 he was one of the greatest big game pitchers in my lifetime.  Then he takes the mound in Game 6 with a torn tendon sheath in his right ankle. Which had been sutured in place by Red Sox doctors. In a procedure they'd only done once before. On a cadaver.

It's not like the bloody sock needs context but I really think it does. Because somehow Schilling pitched 7 innings and gave up just one run in the seventh. At which point the Red Sox were up 4-1.

Then in the eighth Bronson Arroyo took the point. One out. Miguel Cairo doubles. Jeter singles to close it to 4-2. Everyone watching in Boston is going: "Here it comes."

Then A-Rod grounds to Arroyo. Arroyo picks up the ball and runs to tag him but A-Rod slaps his arm knocking the ball loose while the ball rolled down to the baseline Jeter scores.

Now in 2004 there were no challenges, no replay the way there is now. So when Terry Francona challenged the call there were no guarantees the umpires would listen to him. And because this was the Red Sox and given everything that happened to them, history would indicate the challenge would fail, the call would stand, the Yankees would continue to rally, the comeback would end here.

And then the umpires  made the call. A-Rod was called out for interference and Jeter was sent back to first.

And as the Yankee fans reacted to this with the calm and composure they're known for (they started throwing garbage on the field) that, to coin the spiritual, was the hour I first believed. Eventually it got so bad that the Yankees were showering field with debris and Michael Bloomberg had to call the NYPD on to the field in riot gear. The Yankee fan base had never been in this position in eighty years and certainly not since 1996. This stuff happened to other teams, not the Bronx Bombers! They destroyed other teams. The most unprecedented comeback in baseball history, if not sports history, not against the Yankees!

When Game 6 ended I knew the Yankees were dead. The momentum was entirely on Boston's side and I knew there was no way the Yankees could overcome it. The fat lady had already sung even before the first pitch had been thrown even if the Yankees did get Bucky Dent to throw it out

And the Red Sox ended the suspense early. They scored 2 runs in the first on an Ortiz home run because of course. Damon hit a grand slam in the second and the rest of the game was the Red Sox making up for 86 years of pent-up aggression. It was 10-3 at the end of night.

I bought a copy of the New York Post that day for the sports section alone. The headline summed it up: "Hell Freezes Over."

There was still a World Series to go and in an alternate universe – really the one that Red Sox had lived in during the 20^th century – the Cardinals who had crushed their hopes in 1946 and 1967 and had won the most games in baseball in 2004 would have done so here. But the 2004 Red Sox were not just playing baseball; they were exorcising their demons. And once you've beaten your greatest nemesis for 86 years in the greatest comeback in baseball history, the Cardinals didn't have a prayer. And indeed Boston demolished St. Louis in a sweep never trailing in any of the games.

The entire world was different after that and I don't just mean sports. The ramifications filtered down to Hollywood at every level.  Just weeks after the sweep Boston Legal which was written by the native David E. Kelley had Denny Crane and Alan Shore basically use the Red Sox sweep as an excuse for Denny's latest shenanigans with William Shatner saying to the judge as he left "Who's your daddy?" Fever Pitch, the Jimmy Fallon-Drew Barrymore romcom that was being filmed with Fallon's character being a lifelong Red Sox fan getting in the way of a romance had to have its ending rewritten to dealing with the Red Sox's comeback.

 And as a fan of Lost, we would learn that not even on an island where miraculous things happened all the time could top the Red Sox sweep. When Ben Linus updates Jack on what's happened since the plane crash and tells him the Red Sox lost the World Series Jack actively doesn't believe him. He has to show a recording of the final out for Jack to buy it. And to be clear Jack still doesn't know whether to trust it. The following season when outsiders reach the island Jack actually asks Frank Lapidus if the Red Sox won the World Series.

"Don't make me talk about it," Frank says. "I'm from the Bronx. I bleed Yankee Blue."

To top it all off the previous October HBO had run a documentary about the Red Sox called: "The curse of the Babe" the previous year. One year they updated it with "Reverse of the Curse." All of the Boston fans who'd been full of gloom and dismay the previous year were now full of hope and cheer as if the weight of the world had been lifted from their shoulders.

And I'll be honest. I suspect that weight was lifted off the shoulders of every single Red Sox player still alive from that period just a bit if not the same way it had been the fans. For Johnny Pesky and Bobby Doerr, still around from the 1946 team, to Yaz and Lonborg and every from the 1967 team to that outstanding team from the entire 1970s, all the way up to Bill Buckner himself, they no longer had to carry the burden of having come close and failed. Reconciliation was possible, healing could finally begin.

As for the Yankees, I will confess it has been easier for me personally to root for them in the aftermath of being on the other side of a loss like this. It made them all human in a way that the four World Series in five years had made them seem like a machine. I can appreciate their dynasty in retrospect in a way I couldn't when I was watching it the first time. I can appreciate Jeter and Posada and Petite and Bernie in a way that was so much more difficult when I watched them win all the time. It was the first time the Yankee luster had been dimmed in not just my lifetime but the memory of baseball and while things have been as good for them in the last twenty years, I can root for them in a way that was more difficult as a teenager and young adult.

I will close this out with an epilogue for both Boston and New York and indeed  21^st century baseball so far.

 

Lost Character Study Part 1: Why Jack Shephard Never Fit The Narrative Of His Era

 

Author's Note: I felt to be fair in this series I'm going to go through the characters in the chronological order their final episode in Season 6 aired. That said because Jack was the first character we met in Lost I think I should start with him.

 

I'll be quoting some of my old reviews of Lost (never published on this site) a lot here. This is what I wrote about Jack when I was rewatching the final season:

(In retrospect )Jack Shephard was trapped by the rules of television at the time (2004-2010)

The series opened on Jack and we spent the first ten minutes essentially following him. According to the rules not only of network television but basically all television that has followed in cable and streaming dramas since, the first character you meet is going to be the lead for the entire series. There have been exceptions over the years  - we didn’t meet Scully until five minutes into The X-Files or Mulder until ten minutes in, and the first character we met in Damages was Ellen but the series made it very clear that the lead was Patty Hewes - but that is the rule and it's been basically a cliché as long as I’ve been watching TV from The Practice to The Crown. (There have clearly been exceptions over the years I’m not thinking of but that is the standard.) It was a different story because Lost was an ensemble show but Jack always appeared in more episodes than any other character in every season.

The bigger problem was that Jack was hard to like. Not an antihero the way that Tony Soprano or James McNulty had been before or Don Draper and Walter White were later on. The trouble was Jack Shephard wasn’t a ‘Difficult Man’ in the definition of the term. He was too good to be a villain but too self-righteous and prickly to meet the definition of a hero. No one had any trouble liking Sawyer even though he was a criminal and mean or Sayid because he was a torturer but for some reason we didn’t like Jack because…he tried too hard.

Now I'll elaborate on what was going on TV up until 2004 and until 2010.

If we accept the idea that most people considered Jack the lead, even though Lost was always an ensemble show, then there were only a few archetypes to that point.

1.He was basically a good person doing his best in a tough job (i.e. Mark Greene in ER) or something of a complicated action hero (Jack Bauer)

2.He was the antihero type who was basically a killer (in 2004 they would have been Tony Soprano, Vic Mackey or Al Swearengen)

3. He was a prickly professional who was awful personally but solid professionally (Dr. House or Alan Shore on Boston Legal.)

4. He was the romantic lead (McDreamy)

 

Matthew Fox didn't fit into any of the boxes at any point during Lost's run. He clearly never came close to number 2 on the list, Lost never really fit the metric where he could be number 3, and while he was involved in a love triangle, most fans never swooned after him the way they did Sawyer.

Jack does come the closest to being the first example and certainly Lost gave Matthew Fox more then enough occasions to show that. The problem was that Jack never wanted to be the leader on Lost (the first few episodes made that very clear) and once he got the job he demanded total loyalty but everybody constantly called his decisions into question for the first half of the series.

Jack was given the job of leader because of how he behaved in opening minutes of the series and also because he was the voice of reason in the midst of a disaster. That would have worked had they not crashed on this island and the fact that the longer the show went on the more he just ignored all of the weird stuff that was happening became frustrating to the viewers. He also never shared the information he had unless he was forced to, he didn't trust anyone else with the decision making process and every time someone held back personal information, he held it against them as if it were a personal affront.

Now this didn't make him different from any of his fellow survivors; as anyone who watched Lost knows full well everybody refused to share their personal secrets and many of them kept information that they learned about the island to themselves even if it jeopardized everybody lives. And it's not like the viewer wasn't fine with this whenever Don Draper hid his past or Walter White lied to his family that he was cooking meth and so on. Jack may have been self-righteous to a ridiculous fault but compared to the manipulations Dexter Morgan would do to everyone at Miami Metro it really does seem like it was small potatoes.

Perhaps it makes more sense if you compare Jack Shephard to some of the other leaders we were seeing on network television during this period, mostly those who were leading the various CSIs or Without A Trace or the police and district attorneys on the various Law & Order spinoffs that were starting to unfold. Gil Grissom and Jack McCoy might not have always been the most dazzling of characters but they were certainly competent professionals and superb examples of leadership in action. They were able to delegate when they had to, they respected the chain of command and they would admit when they made mistakes because they knew when they screwed up guilty people would go free and possibly people would die.

That actually leads to something I realized even in my first rewatch of Lost which I would restate in my original article (I'll try to edit it appropriately):

What was frustrating the longer the show went on is why everybody kept following Jack season after season because when push came to shove, Jack’s instincts were never right. And whenever Locke pointed that out, he dug in and argued that Locke was crazy and anyone who agreed with him was also crazy. Jack told both Desmond and Locke that pushing the button every 108 minutes was an act of lunacy because it was just an experiment. He was as wrong to think that as Locke was to not push it anymore. Jack thought he could trust Ben, a man who had lied to him for weeks about everything that if he performed life-saving surgery on him, he could leave the island. He was wrong about that. Jack believed the freighter folk were there to save them but when Ben and Locke said they were dangerous, he ignored what Hurley had told him and said they were crazy. Jack was wrong again. Finally when Locke told Jack that if he left the island, it was going to eat him up from the inside Jack told him he was crazy – and even after becoming a drunken, drugged out mess who was seeing the ghost of his dead father, when Locke told him he needed to come back, Jack told him he was crazy.

Then Locke ended up dying and Jack admitted he was wrong – but decided that Ben was now trustworthy. Even when he learned Ben had arranged to expose Aaron’s parentage  to bring  Kate on board, he went with Ben instead of her. By now Jack who had spent four seasons saying that there was no such thing as destiny believed it was now his destiny to take the five people he’d gotten off the island to get on an airplane that would lead them back there even though so many people had died already so they could get off it. He told everybody they had to go back to save the ones that were left behind. Then they blooped back to 1977 – and no one needed saving. In fact, their mere presence destroyed in a few days everything that they  had spent the last three years building.

Then Dan showed up and told them they were not destined to come back to the island and they never had been. This shook up Jack, who’d spent the last few days convinced the island was their destiny. So when Dan told them that they could make things so that none of the next three years ever happened, and all they had to do was drop a hydrogen bomb on an electromagnetic pocket at the time of an incident, he naturally signed on automatically. He was firm to that devotion even though no one else was and most of them thought he was crazy now. But he was sure that this was absolutely the right thing to do and dropping the bomb was the reason he’d come back….

And it didn’t work.

Perhaps that's also part of the problem with Jack. No matter what he did he was judged by both the survivors and the viewer for not doing the right thing. He couldn't delegate authority and he was always pissed when someone made a decision without him. And considering that his speech in White Rabbit is one of the most iconic in the series the fact that when someone else quoted they always seemed to do so mockingly made it clear they never really bought it – in large part because most of the time Jack did what he wanted and expected everybody to live with it.

During Season 5 Sawyer reminds Jack that he was a bad leader because he reacted rather then thought things through and as a result people died. When Jack counters that he got them off the island Sawyer points out that he ended up back here anyway. And for once Jack has nothing to say. In large part Jack's journey in the final half of the series is the realization that he's better as part of the group rather then the leader. While that's a reversal of so many stories on television before and during this era, it's counterintuitive to what the view thought it should be and its understandable that some would chafe at this particular lesson. We wanted our characters to be bold dynamic leaders or antiheroes who did their own thing and watching Jack bang his head against the wall season after season before he realized where his journey would take him isn't as fun as watching Jack Bauer save the world or Walter White go from Mr. Chips to Scarface.

Then there were Jack's 'daddy issues'. Now as any fan of Lost knows parent issues, particularly the father, are one of the main connecting forces behind practically every character we meet on Lost during its run and I'll deal with it in each of the articles. Jack's were among those that frustrated the most viewers because Christian, by the standards of Lost, wasn't even that bad a parent, just a dysfunctional one. He was an alcoholic who fathered another child with a woman halfway around the world and he always seemed to put so much pressure on his son. We saw in his very first appearance in his flashback when Christian told his twelve year old son after he'd been beaten up by a bully that he would fail as a hero because "you just don't have what it takes'.

Jack apparently lived in his entire life to prove his father wrong. He went to medical school and became a spinal surgeon just like his father was: he did his residency and became an attending in the same hospital as him and its clear in every flashback that he was trying to prove that he was everything his father wasn't: a better surgeon, a better husband, a better man. But Christian never seemed to give him any credit for it; every time he showed up it was as if he was there to seed doubt in his son's mind.

What the show revealed what that Christian was proud of his son but he could only tell strangers about it. He ended up befriending Ana Lucia (Two for the Road) and the two of them went to Sydney where he went on the mother of all benders and in the middle of the night went to a woman's house (we'd later learn it was Claire's) demanding to see his daughter. Christian then told Ana that he came to Sydney because he screwed up his life in LA and he was essentially running away.

Then he went into the same bar that Sawyer would end up in and told him that he knew that his son was a better doctor and a better man and that he could pick up the phone and call him and tell him that. Sawyer asked why he didn't. Christian told him: "Because I am weak." After that he went on the final bender that led to him drinking himself to death, which led to Jack going to Sydney – and putting him on Oceanic 815.

One of the major themes of Lost is the inability of share information, both practical and personally. In the final half of the series – as many of the children start to become parents – the viewer is given a different perspective on whether we've been misjudging what we saw in the flashbacks during the first half of the season. This is proven in Jack's case in his flashback in The Incident.

We flash back to Jack's first solo surgery which he described in the Pilot to Kate: he cut the dural sac, he was terrified, he said he was going to let the fear in for five seconds and then he closed her up and fixed her. We now learn he left out the most important part: he didn't make that decision at all, Christian did.

What's fascinating in the aftermath of the surgery Christian congratulates his son and Jack argues that his father doesn't have any faith in him. We actually hear Christian sigh audibly before he says: "Are you sure I'm not the one who doesn't have any faith in you?"  As Nikki Stafford points out:

"Christian could not have stepped back and done nothing, or the woman would have been paralyzed for life. He had to calm Jack down, and frankly, he probably treated him the way he would any student in that situation. In fact, there's a good chance he wouldn't have had a student as green as Jack performing that kind of surgery yet…It would seem Jack wasn't looking for his father to stop treating him differently; what he wanted was better treatment then any other student. Maybe Jack is seeing something in Christian's that's not really there. Is it possible Christian has always been proud of his son, but Jack was too angry to notice?"

Now if you've seen Lost and the final season you see how the show helps Jack come to this realization. But the writers have been telling us well before that Christian has always been proud of his son; he just was never able to tell it to him when he was alive. And as a result of Christian's emotional paralysis (a trait that's clearly handed down in the Shephard family) Jack came to the island carrying the ghost of his father with him. Literally. His father's coffin was on the plane; he followed his ghost around the island to it and when his father's body wasn't in it, he smashed the coffin to pieces.

When he got back to civilization the image that haunted him was the ghost of his father. It's never been explained if the island was talking to him or this was simply his own guilt, eventually fueled by drugs and alcohol. And as a result he ended up becoming Christian by the time we see him in the flashforward in 'Through the Looking Glaas, only while Christian could hold it together when he was drunk Jack couldn't hide it from the world. Watching those scenes during the flashforwards is brilliant acting because Matthew Fox plays every scene as if it’s a raw nerve, unable to hide just how thoroughly destroyed he is and how he just moves from scene to scene, dismissed by those who once cared for him as crazy himself.

Matthew Fox never gets enough credit compared to so many of his co-stars for his incredible performance on Lost. Stafford was always one of his biggest boosters and I'll let her describe  his work by Season 5

Over the past five years he has played the character of Jack as a combination of holier-than-thou, sympathetic, infuriating, confident, and completely lost. In Season1, he calmly walked from one catastrophe to the next, keeping things together and fixing things around him. In season 2, he refused to abandon his convictions, eventually causing Locke to mistrust his own. In season 3 he had his moments of doubt, and the stress of the island was getting to him. In season 4 he went off the island, fell apart completely and now we see a man who is a shell of his former self, desperate to hold on to any thread of hope that he can to keep going. His eyes are filled with pain, he looks like he's been through hell, and his face looks like its aged 15 years. But that's all Matthew Fox's acting, because when they flashback, he looks as fresh and healthy as he did in the first season.

That too was vastly different from what we were used to during this period. The viewer wanted either constancy from its leads, to see them become more of a monster, or reach a level of happiness by the time we get to the end of the series. It's not fun to watch the character you see as confident and assured when you first meet them become a complete and utter mess the closer we get to the end of the show.

But that's the point of Jack's journey during Lost. He has to reach a level of completely and utterly falling apart so by the time he reaches the final season he has absolutely no confidence left in himself to make decisions and realize he has failed. We have to see him confide in Hurley that he came back to the island: "Because I was broken, and I was dumb enough to think this place could fix me." We have to see him realize that he's lived his entire life blindly being a man of science so that he can find a way to be a man of faith. We have to see him reach a point where he has to make the kinds of bizarre decisions that he wouldn't have made at the start of the season. And most importantly we have to hear him give this speech close to the end explaining why he makes the decision he does then – and foreshadows what happens to him at the end of the series:

"You have no idea how hard it is to sit back and listen to other people tell me what I should do. But maybe that's the point. Maybe I'm supposed to let go."

Jack's journey on the show is learning not to be a leader but to be follower, that he has to be passive in his approach rather than active. That's not always the most entertaining thing for a viewer to watch or experience but in its way it's just as radical as anything we were seeing anyone else on TV doing during that era and for a long time to come.

And let's not forget something else: at the end of the series Jack is a very different person than he was at the start. That's hardly unique for Lost, as we'll see in the articles that will follow, but for those of us who watched Tony Soprano and Dexter Morgan were the same people they were at the end of the series that they were the start – and in many cases, worse – that's another reason Lost was such an outlier and a different kind of classic.

 

 

X-Files 30 Anniversary Retrospective: Home - 30 Years Ago Today One of the Most Controversial Episodes In TV History Aired

 

By the fall of 1996 I was basically locked into watching The X-Files every Friday night and not looking forward to its moving to Sunday in just two weeks' time. (I had no idea how that would not only turn the show to mainstream hit but revolutionize first network and then all of television as a result.) And on October 11^th 1996 I saw 'Home' complete with the first viewer discretion warning I'd seen associated with The X-Files.

I didn't know until much after the fact just how much controversy was associated with this episode. Immediately after it aired everybody and their grandmother raised a public stink to Fox and they immediately took out of syndication. Home wouldn't be aired again until 1999 at which point it had been released as part of the collection of VHS tapes that aired many classic X-Files episodes.  Naturally once the DVD's had been released in 2002 the networks couldn't come up with a good argument not to syndicate it and both the Sci-Fi channel and other cable networks (such as the horror network Chiller) would do so. But its controversy remains to this day: Comet, the cable network that currently has the syndication rights to it rarely reruns in, usually saving it for special occasions.

Here's the thing, even by the standards of what The X-Files aired during Season 4 Home isn't really the goriest or most gruesome episode. A month later The X-Files would air Sanguinarium which is by far the bloodiest episode in the entire run of the series and even by the standards of today is a gush in blood in a way that might turn the stomach of fans of Ti West. And Leonard Betts famously has us wading in surgical waste, has a decapitated head and a trunkful of cancerous tumors and Fox had no problem airing it after the Super Bowl that year when it became the most watched episode in the show's history. Yet despite all of that I do understand why even in an era when The Walking Dead is in its fourth spinoff (I lost count) cable channels might be wary of rerunning it. And that has less to do with the blood and gore then what Home is really dealing with.

As I've written in previous articles this is the first episode that Glen Morgan and James Wong wrote after returning to The X-Files in Season 4. They'd left the show in Season 2 to try their own ambitious FOX series: Space: Above & Beyond, which despite positive reviews and decent ratings was canceled by the network. Chris Carter and Ten-Thirteen welcomed them back with open arms. After their first script aired there's a possibility Carter might have wondered if he should have been so hasty.

During the first two seasons Morgan & Wong had perfected the Monster of the Week standard, essentially created Skinner and The Lone Gunmen and given us our first real insight into the Smoking Man. By the time they left The X-Files was on its way to its first Emmy nomination for Best Drama and was about to go from cult hit to mainstream one. So there's a part of me that wonders if they'd come back deciding to poking at that constructs of the series they'd done so much to build. Glen's brother Darin had tried to deconstruct the show in a satirical lens and achieved iconic status. Morgan and Wong seemed to be trying to do the same thing in each of their four scripts, only in almost all of them they were being deadly serious.

As Robert Shearman brilliantly phrases it in his rave for this episode:

If anything (Morgan & Wong)  seem more unforgiving of The X-Files now that it's a big hit; there seems to be an anger to the way they take its conventional limitations and smash them. Home kicks off their reign of terror in the most controversial way possible…Its teaser kicks off with a child being born with the help of rusty kitchen implements – a fork to prod it out of the womb, scissors to cut the umbilical cord – and the screaming baby is then taken out and buried alive in the mud. The senses are revolted.

The episode is, of course, much criticized, but it is actually very hard to be more revolting then this. There's a brutality to the story which is sickening – there is probably no murder as tense in the entire series as that of the sheriff and his wife. But its hardly just a collection of disturbing set pieces and gore. Instead its an attack on US values and the family system, and more raw and more blunt then you could ever have expected on network television.

And I suspect its that reason, not the gore and bloodiness that have made certain cable stations, well, squeamish about rerunning it these days.

The title for the record has many meaning not the least of which that it’s the name of the town where all these horrible things take place: Home, Pennsylvania. That may also be part of the reason cable is reluctant to air it: if Home was in Mississippi or Wyoming the more liberal stations might be more inclined to put it on the air these days. It would be easier to accept the idea of the Peacock family – which we are told in the first act are the latest in a line of centuries of inbreeding – if they lived in red state America. (There's a hint late in the episode that the Peacock family were Confederates sympathizers at one point.) And it might be just as easy to accept the folksy sheriff – who despite being African-American is named Andy Taylor(a brilliant Tucker Smallwood) and very much has the same values of the character he's named for – if they actually lived in the South.

But by putting it in Pennsylvania it's a lot harder to take. Now don't get me wrong; I'm absolutely certain that it was banned from network television because of the gore and the gruesomeness of the subject matter. But America was far less polarized during the Clinton years then it is today. And the show makes it very clear that Taylor and the Peacocks have coexisted for years because they've never threatened each other. It's only when Mulder and Scully, the interlopers from the federal government come to town, that the two end up destroying each other.   You really don't have to go that far to go from Mulder and Scully commenting so dismissively about the Peacock family even as they see the violence they do when they lash out to say, Hilary, referring to rural America as a 'basket of deplorables'.

What leads to the darker irony is that when we reach the end of the episode is that Mulder and Scully were essentially called in under false pretenses. The Peacocks were guilty of no real crime before Taylor called in the bureau and Mulder and Scully's assumptions about who the mother of the child were are completely, and horribly, wrong. By the time they realize the most sickening truth about the episode, the Sheriff and his wife are dead, Deputy Pastor has been killed by a booby trap and the agents are forced to kill two of the brothers in self-defense. Perhaps that's the reason so much of the banter by the agents, often a highlight, strikes viewers as tonally off. Mulder and Scully realize that much of this mess is because of them and watching Scully and Mulder make jokes about Babe while trying to force the sheep out of the Peacock's fold really seems out of place.

Or perhaps there's more to it than just that. When we first see Mulder he actually seems distracted from work and seems oddly nostalgic about his childhood.  We've never once heard Mulder actually thinking of settling down before; his character has tunnel vision about everything. But the fact that during the first act he genuinely seems to be considering it shows that even he has had visions of a life beyond the job once.

This is reflected more directly when Scully, in the aftermath of the horrific autopsy done in the bathroom sink in the sheriff's office, begins reflecting on motherhood for the first time in the series. It's worth remembering Morgan and Wong were also gifted at being the first writers to deal with Scully's family life in the classic episodes Beyond The Sea and One Breath and they showed us an image of Fox and Samantha in a flashback in Little Green Men. The other scripts they'll write in Season 4 well pull back to curtain more directly on the longings of the regulars pasts so it's clear that's more of what's in play here then any foreshadowing of future storylines.

Morgan and Wong didn't just title the episode Home for the sight gag of the credits when we learned where the show was taking place: this is very much a story of defining what 'home' is for different people. And the show never gives a clear answer. As Monster of the Week makes clear in its review of the episode:

Is 'home' what the Peacocks inhabit in their insular, closed off world? Or is it the quiet, pleasant life of the Taylors, all cozy porches and silent moments together? Does it mean what Mulder and Scully share, a life spent endlessly on the road, building a home in each new city?"

There are no doubt people who would argue for one version or the other (though probably not to the grotesqueries the Peacocks take it to) and quite a few who would answer 'none of the above'.

They also write:

"Mulder and Scully are our heroes, but they also represent the world that threatens to homogenize all this weirdness…The old ways of life are dying, as high speed electrical cables smooth out our differences, one connection at a time."

The writers almost seem nostalgic for a simpler time when 'you had to be road-tripping through the Texas wilderness to run across a family of chainsaw-wielding freaks. Now Mulder and Scully could pop in and out of a small town to hang out with an inbred sideshow in just a few days' time."

To which I have to say: I actually would feel safer if the family of freaks stayed in their section of America, thank you very much. Indeed anyone who watches the sequence where the Peacocks go on a family road trip to murder the Taylors, all to the tune of 'Wonderful, Wonderful," would no doubt really wish the Peacocks just had board game nights like other families.

Shearman argues that this particular sequence may be the most tense in the entire series and he's not far off. Watching it play out is one of the most frightening single sequences and I sometimes wonder if David Fincher and M. Night Shyamalan – both of whom were in the early stages of their careers in 1996 –  were fans of the show and used this particular sequence as a model for much of their work in their careers. Full credit must also be given to director Kim Manners, who was gifted at playing the audience like the piano as anyone else among the directors on the show and the incredible cinematography of John Bartley, who may never have use the lack of lighting to more power during his tenure then here.

Shearman actually makes the argument that Morgan & Wong were making a subtle critique against The X-Files itself. He argues that the writers are 'objecting to the format of a show which has our FBI agents witness atrocities on a weekly basis only to bounce back ready for the next case. You could be tempted to say…that to be fair, it's not such a crime for a show to be escapist fun – but as an invective against complacency their point still stands."

In this Shearman, as he frequently does throughout his book, reads far too much into the writer's motivations. I suspect if they heard these words Morgan & Wong would be stunned by it. In fact in an interview for Monster of The Week Wong tells the authors that they were stunned by just how upset Standards & Practices were; saying "I thought we had done worse stuff before." He describes showing the teaser to one such executives and its clear they were trying to assuage them on it not that being that made and the employee watched in shock. They weren't helped because Kim Manners was watching it and his reaction was: "That was fucking great!"

And just to drive the point home that all Morgan and Wong were trying to do was write a scary TV show he tells us that when they went to Millennium the following year they actually pitched the idea of the Peacock family having an encounter with Frank Black. (And honestly given the nature of Millennium they would have fit right in.) But when they pitched to the head of Fox at the time he told them: "Never. The Peacocks are never going to be on the air again." Then he added "The reason we have the V-Chip is because of your show!"

Which…honestly could have been possible. By 1996 television was about to be forced to give broadcast ratings for its programs. Network TV was going to be struggling for TV-PG and TV-14 but every time I watch 'Home' I can't help but think that this if you were to air it on cable you might still not be comfortable giving it a TV-MA. And it's not even because of the violence or the gore or even the horrible deformities that we see not just every Peacock living family member having but are clearly on display in the photo gallery that's in the home.

No it's because of the fact that Mrs. Peacock, played in one of the most unsettling guest appearances by Karin Konoval, is not a victim of the Peacock's inbreeding but a willing participant. We learn that Edmund is the brother and the father of the other two boys and she is perfectly fine with what they are doing. The way she tells Scully "They're such good boys" and tells Scully "Maybe one day you'll have the pride when you know your boy will do anything for his mother" is a term that I believe would shock a generation used to this kind of thing happening regularly in Westeros.

Indeed I'd argue the Game of Thrones comparison is a valid one. House Peacock (ha ha) doesn't want power or territory but when they are threatened they are far more dangerous and lethal with their weapons then anything we see with the swords and dragons on HBO. They are willing to kill to protect what's there and you can argue there's the same twisted love here that you see in the House Lanister but without the fantasy element the viewer sees just how ugly and brutal it truly is. The Peacock's even have a very superhuman type power; none of them can feel pain in the traditional sense. ("It runs in the family," Mama brags to Scully.) And as a result when we see the Peacock's brutally bludgeon the Sheriff and his wife to death or see them fall upon Deputy Pastor once he's been decapitated by one of their traps,  I defy even the viewer raised on the Saw franchise not to be a little revolted. One doesn't so much enjoy 'Home' as one experiences it and you might not want to experience it that often.

But there's a time and place for everything and since we're nearing Halloween now's as good a time as any to track it down. It's still available on Hulu as we speak and those of you who still have your DVDs and VHS's (like yours truly) can watch it. However, a word of caution. Though they used a Johnny Mathis impersonator for 'Wonderful, Wonderful', I can assure you that you'll never be able to hear the original ever again without wondering whether the Peacocks are still traveling the highway of America, looking to rebuild their family. Maybe they've found a rental in Texas to settle down in by now – though I suspect everybody gives these neighbors their space.

 

Homicide Rewatch: Abduction

 

Written by Julie Martin and Anya Epstein

Directed by Kenneth Fink

 

In a sense this episode seems like it belongs in a different series altogether: it's closer to the kind of story Law & Order told in its early years or shows like Without A Trace would specialize in within a few years of Homicide's ending. But even in a season where the writers have been testing the boundaries of what the show was capable of 'Abduction' is remarkable.

It's a red ball, to be sure; but it's also the first time we've seen the squad dispatched this quickly to a single crime scene since 'Prison Riot' last season. (That was the last time we heard Giardello say: "Everybody goes" and this time he doesn't modify it for Frank.) It was mentioned almost in passing by Kellerman that homicide detectives deal with potential kidnappings but the series has never come close to deal with any crime that didn't involve a dead body on the scene. Indeed the detectives are doing something we've never seen on the show before and will only see one or two times in the future: they're trying to be proactive and stop a homicide from occurring.

It's a simple story by the standards of the show: there's a single investigation, we see how it begins and we carry through it all the way to the end. This comes as a contrast to Mercy, which dealt with separate stories for every regular; now we're seeing them all work as a unit. And it's the rarest of things for Homicide; it's a story with a happy ending, where the detectives can go to the Waterfront after a hard day's work and can say that they did more good then just lock up a killer.

The episode has a typically cinematic opening with a mother named Amy Marshall  deciding to put her four year old son on a carousel and debating whether to let him ride by himself. She talks with another mother about how hard it is to let it go, she looks down to try and find her camera and by the time she looks up her son is gone. She runs through the carousel and on the other side is her son's cap.

The episode begins with squabbling over desks: Frank and Ballard are still sharing after six months and Giardello finally moves her to the desk across from Gharty. Then Falsone gets the call from the kidnapping at the Inner Harbor.

They've searched and they haven't found here. They have a witness but it’s a five year girl who was behind him and Bayliss and Pembleton have no idea how to question a five year old. (Who would?) Falsone and Stivers (who are the primaries) start asking questions about day care and nursery school, babysitters and the ex-husband. Understandably this case hits home for Paul more personally then others and he's willing to justify more manpower for an extended search.

The first meeting reveals that they don't have much, all of the parents were watching their own kids and it was highly unlikely given their jobs that this could be about ransom. There's also the possibility that because the father has only partial custody and they can't reach him, that he could be involved.

This is the inevitable next step, particularly when it becomes clear that the Marshalls couldn't get long any better as shared custody of parents as they could married. When David shows up at the house around the police Falsone goes to him – and given what he just went through the last few months we know why he'd go this far – but it's clear very quickly that his alibi checks out. The next step is go to on the news. Immediately after Barnfather and Gaffney show their faces and it's clear that they're more upset about the publicity aspect then the actual missing child. This is Falsone's first exposure to pressure from the bosses. Stivers experience with sex crimes helps as both can state the alternatives: either this was a woman who wanted her own child, in which case he'll be fine for a while or it’s a pedophile in which case they have 24 hours – "or we'll be looking for a body." For once the blunt talk and perhaps the nature of the crime actually silences the bosses; they just walk away stoically.

Bayliss and Pembleton's conversations with nursery school offer a few grim laughs as the teacher assures them that she could pay perfect attention if someone suspicious showed up, while two three year olds begin fighting behind her. But we also get grimness from when Kellerman and Munch are talking with the Marshal's neighbor and he talks about seeing faces on milk cartons. "Every time I toss out that carton I wonder if that kid got back alive," he says. (Sadly even though the milk cartons aren't used any more we still wonder.)

Falsone follows the guideline. He tells the father to talk to the abductor, the mother to talk directly to her son. It's now I should mention that Amy is played by Elizabeth Marvel in what  was her official television debut (See Hey Isn't That…) In the scene where she delivers her plea to her son and assures her she'll be okay, you can see how she her trying desperately to hold it together. Marvel was about to become of the most exceptional character actors in 21^st century TV, most of her work for playing women with a backbone of steel so its stunning to see her play someone on the verge of breaking someone who keeps making her plea and has to be pulled away gently by her husband after they go to commercial.

Immediately afterwards Falsone and Stivers get a report on a sex offender who moved into a house just a few blocks away from the Marshals a few weeks ago. The scene that follows is excruciating as they the detectives try to solicit information from a man who has a history of abusing such children and they try to hold in their disgust. Then when the man sees the picture and begins to all but fondle it while saying: "He likes the swings." Falsone actually exercises remarkable restraint when he just grabs Ramey and Stivers has no more patience when she tells him about how his walls were found covered with pictures. The scene where Falsone tells him that there are going to be uniforms at his house until they find Sean is remarkable – you can tell he wants to take a swing at him but he manages to hold his rage in. The only emotion he shows is when he sees Ramey holding the photo – and then he walks back and snatches it away from him. It's only when he outside the box  and he learns that they're going to have to let him go that he reacts with anger – but not where you think.

What has been suggested indirectly is made direct when he goes to Janine's house and practically begs his wife to stay home from work rather than send his son to day care. For once we see the concerned parent in Paul and its striking to see how things have changed when Janine doesn't really put up a fight.

Around that time things take an unlikely turn as Jeff Andrews shows up. Jeff Andrews is very clearly modeled after John Walsh and America's Most Wanted (he's even dressed the jacket and shirt combo Walsh used during his broadcast) as well as the same backstory. Falsone has no use for him even given his success rate but Al makes it clear that they can't afford to lose the help.

Just then they get a call from someone demanding ransom. He seems to know all he can about their son. But it turns out he's just a wannabe who just wants to be on television. What's more interesting is the discussion Falsone has with David Marshall during this period. David begins to panic and needs to get air and goes out into the cameras. He starts talking about despite his expenses he's got maybe $600 in the bank. Falsone actually jokes: "That's about what I got." When he says he's never done another thing to hurt another human being, Paul turns serious: "I don't think it works that way." More interestingly when QRT comes to the house to get there with all guns raised Giardello says its his call "but think of the child." Jaspers then immediately lowers the weapons.

The next day Bayliss tells Frank that in some way he'd rather be working a murder, that it's easier to deal with this rather then thinking about a child being tortured, at least that way the victims at peace. Bayliss admits he wants to be a father some day and have kids. Frank immediately jumps on this as if he's thinking of ending his experimental phase and the eagerness in this is rather telling.

Just as telling is Al's energy is less about rage but more about concern. When his detectives tell them about the complete lack of progress and that they need to start over you can here a quiver in Giardello's voice we almost never do: "The next time I see Sean Marshall's face, I want to see him in his mother's arms," is delivered with the energy of a parent, not a commander.

Not long after a series of reinterviews of everyone on the merry-go-round they find a five year old who actually remembers Sean, the horse he was on and when he got off. But when Falsone and Stivers try to question her, they hit a stone wall with a child who can only focus on purple. At that moment Andrews suggests a hypnotists who's done some work for them, local departments and the FBI. Falsone all but explodes into mockery: "Why don't we just turn this case into a circus?"  Giardello then tells them how fifteen years ago they had a serial killer with a living victim and with hypnosis they remembered enough details to catch the man.

Under hypnosis the girl remembers a dark blue car with the license plate beginning TXQ. Falsone is upset about this but at least they have a place to start. When Andrews starts to air the program Falsone starts shouting at him: "What the hell do you know about police work?" Andrews just says: "I know you're under a lot of pressure, detective." Then Stivers tells him that Andrews' daughter was abducted ten years ago and was never found. Falsone deflates like a balloon.

Ballard and Gharty then knock on the door of Bailey Reynolds, whose just left the house with suitcases and 'her new son' according to the neighbor, to see her family in Montreal. They split up, airport, bus station, and train station. When Andrews says he wants to be there when they find Sean, a more polite Falsone says: "Don't you mean if they find them?" but otherwise he's polite. It's only when he's forced to stay as the primary monitoring the investigation we see just how much this has worn him down. He's also thinking like a father more than a detective. Not longer after state police find Reynolds and while she's clearly deranged she doesn't even have a weapon and when confronted with police released Sean to his parents.

Reynolds is clearly delusional: she's been watching 'Matt' basically his whole life from the merry-go-round, who watched the Marshalls fight from a distance. She truly believes she was a better mother for him because it was so easy to take him. Falsone doesn't know if she's competent to stand trial but for once he cares less about but punishment as long as she's off the street. Sean is scared and confused but Stivers thinks he'll recover.   Andrews gives him a tape and Falsone is puzzled why he's still going to air the sequence. "Sometimes we want to do happy endings," Falsone is honest saying that his job doesn't give him much room for happy endings.

For the first time in a long time we have a conversation between two women from the squad as Ballard and Stivers discuss whether they'd ever want to have a baby. I don't know if the Bechdel test existed in 1998 but this is an interesting variation as Stivers makes it clear she never wanted children and the two of them talking about 'the ticking clock'. And considering how rarely Homicide discusses gender issues specifically (it was always more ahead of the curve on race) it's actually welcome as Ballard admits she would have wanted a good man and a baby. Stivers says she would be open to marriage or a baby but only if they came along: she doesn't actively crave it. Ballard actually calls her lucky for not having unfulfilled desires and Stivers admits she doesn't know about that. It's a fascinating insight to two women who are working in a male dominated profession and have been fighting for it among their peers every day and it's not the kind of thing we were used to when Melissa Leo was the only woman on the squad.

The episode ends as you might expect: Falsone visits Janine and tells her that even though Daniel's asleep he just wants to see him for a second. He wakes his son just to tell him he loves him. And we see how this played out on videotape as Andrews tells them how it played out, and he says it’s a chance to believe in love and luck 'and the hard work of the men and women of our nation's police forces." And honestly given everything that's already happened to the squad this season – and spoiler alert, there are even worse things to come before it's over – can you blame the show for wanting to give us a happy ending for once?

 

NOTES FROM THE BOARD

It's worth remembering that this episode aired in 1998, just two years after the Amber Alert was officially coined in 1996. I don't think it's a coincidence the witness who breaks the kidnapping is a girl named Amber.

Mahoney PTSD: Just a brief tussling over Kellerman demanding that Stivers be moved from Lewis's desk. "Thanks for caring," Stivers says. Giardello tells her to stay where she is.

Bonaventura and Johnson, who are referred to a couple of times in this episode and seen on the screen were two members of Homicide: Second Shift; the online spinoff of the series that aired on the internet during the final three seasons of the show. There was actually a crossover segment done immediately afterward but it's not canon and you probably couldn't find it.

It was the '90s: When Al Giardello says "At this stage in the game I'd take help from the woman on Profiler he's referring to the 1990s NBC Saturday night drama of the same name which featured Ally Walker in the title role. A prototype of later 2000s FBI type shows such as Criminal Minds, the show deal with a team that was tracking serial killers, particularly one known as Jack of All Trades, who had killed Walker's husband and had been stalking her for years before. The series ran from 1996-2000 before it as well as almost all programming running on Saturday nights was cancelled. The show was released on DVD but was never released on streaming despite featuring a super cast including Robert Davi, Roma Maffia, Julian McMahon and Dennis Christopher in the unbilled voice over of Jack.

"Detective Munch'  No jokes. He and Kellerman actually find the one child who noticed Sean get off the carousel.

Hey, Isn't That…Elizabeth Marvel was making her television debut in this episode. Two years later she would get a badge of her own as Nancy Parras in the CBS drama The District in which she appeared in all four seasons before the show was cancelled in 2004. One of the most reliable character actresses in TV, she's appeared in Law & Order and all its spin-offs and played Rita Calhoun a defense attorney on SVU since 2010.

She has had roles in Nurse Jackie, The Newsroom, White Collar and played Alicia Corwin across three seasons of Person of Interest. She played Constance Heck in Season 2 of Fargo. But she is best known for her work in two very different DC set shows: Heather Dunbar, a legislative council who becomes Frank Underwood's rival for the Presidency during Season 3 and 4 of House of Cards and President Elizabeth Keene, the controversial head of state in Seasons 6 and 7 of Homeland. She has also starred in multiple Emmy nominated and award winning limited series, including Unbelievable, Love and Death, The Dropout, Mrs. Davis and Presumed Innocent. She is married to the equally talented character actor Bill Camp and the two of them have appeared in many films and TV shows together, in fact she played the wife of his character Brian Horgan in Presumed Innocent! She is scheduled to appear in the upcoming season of The Gilded Age.

Robert John Burke was already an established character actor in such films as Rambling Rose and had played Robocop in the third film of the franchise. This was actually one of the first TV shows he'd done in a while. Later that year he would appear as Bill Anders in the Emmy winning miniseries From The Earth to the Moon and would play Frank Drummond in the HBO TV movie A Bright Shining Lie. Fontana would cast him as Special Agent Taylor, the man determined to make Chris Keller face justice for a series of gay killings in OZ over four seasons.

He has a fairly successful TV career mostly playing law enforcement officers on shows such as Law and Order, CSI Miami, and The Sopranos. He also played future White House administrator James Mattis in Generation Kill, and played Mickey Gavin across almost the entire run of Denis's Leary Rescue Me. He had the recurring role of Bart Bass on Gossip Girl; General Clarke on the Lifetime Series Army Wives, Patrick Simmons (part of HR) on Person of Interest, William Fairchild on the one season history channel series Project Blue Book and Ed Tucker across nearly 18 years of Law and Order SVU. Fans of The Last Of Us will remember him as Seth, who Joel punched out  at New Year's in Season 2.