At roughly
the halfway point of Love Letters to A Serial Killer the hysterical
literary debut of Tasha Coryell Hannah the narrator of the book tells us
"I thought about how limited we are in our conception of the word
'victim'.
This is a
brilliant line for many reasons. The first and obvious one is that by this
point we know Hannah is going to end up a possible victim of a serial killer.
The second is we also know she's clearly starting to yearn for this to be an
ambition. The third and most subtle is that its another line that describes
Hannah perfectly: it seems like a deep thought but by this point we know she
probably found it online and it sounded good because its pretty clear that she
has no depth in her real life.
I'm not
spoiling anything by that one because that's the first sentence of the novel:
I didn't plan
to fall in love with an accused serial killer. Nevertheless, my wrists and
ankles are bound to a chair and I can blame only myself.
This would
seem to the start of all to many novels. Except one page later Hannah goes into
the head of her former best friend:
"Don't
tell me you didn't want this," Meghan would say if she could see me.
"No one does what you've done if they don't find being tied up and about
to die at least a little hot."
Meghan isn't
wrong. I find no pleasure in the prospect of death but enjoy picturing the
mourning of the masses. I want my name remembered, unlike the hordes of other
women who have been brutally murdered and then forgotten. At the very least, I
want a podcast in my memory."
In this
Coryell unfolds the story of Hannah and as it does it makes it clear that this
woman wants to be a victim of a serial killer because it’s the only thing in
your life she can do that takes no real effort and she can't mess up. One of
the funniest jokes of this book is that she basically screws that up as well.
Hannah thinks
she is a victim at the start of the book
in the way that I suspect so many millennials – of which she no doubt is –
believe they are going in. She blames the fact that when she graduated college
with a major in English and political science with a German minor it’s the
recession's fault she ends up working at a non-profit in Minneapolis. She
really thinks that would be an easy job when in fact there's no sign she's ever
been very good at it, spending her time scrolling social media when she's
supposed to be working, and never writing a novel. She drinks to much and while
she says going on dates with men who will never love here is not an equivalent
crime to killing women, she truly believes in her soul her heartbreak is that
equivalent. The novel starts with her
being ghosted by her boyfriend because she believes because she lacks
sincerity, she naturally assumes he does as well. She thinks the world revolves
around her and is upset that her best friend has found a boyfriend. She
believes she has main character energy when she doesn't have any dimension at
all
Hannah ends
up tracking down Anna Leigh, as with everything else in this novel, by accident
when she's trying to stalk her ex-boyfriend on social media. When she learns
that Anna Leigh disappears she's naturally jealous of her because she resents
her for her good looks and success. Anna Leigh is a law student in Georgia who
has disappeared. Halfway through her morning she finds a true crime forum.
Before I
joined the forum, I would've said that I consumed true crime as much as any
other ordinary American woman, which is to say quite a bit. We were obsessed
with our own impending deaths, imagining danger in even the tamest of
scenarios. Do enough research and no where is safe, not the Target parking lot,
not your apartment complex, not the running trail.
Hannah makes
it clear she's different because she doesn't listen to podcasts or go to
conventions: she's not one of those women. She ends up one of those forums and
its clear when she talks to Meghan, she's late to the party. Then Anna Leigh
ends up dead in a ravine. I hate the word ravine she tells us "It sounded
like a word that was invented to describe a place where bodies were found. She
ends up getting involved because a post she makes gets ten thousand shares. She
vows to find Anna Leigh's killer "to know that I was capable of
something." The idea that she in Minneapolis could do something that was
happening in Georgia is ludicrous but we know she's genuinely needy.
As the bodies
stack up Anna gets deeper down the rabbit and ends up thinking that William
Thompson is the killer. After he's caught she tries to move on with her life
and after her boyfriend moves with a new girlfriend she writes a long, vicious
and angry letter to William Thompson in prison. She never expects him to write
back.
William's
letter is thoughtful and courteous and he gives no indication of his guilt. She
writes a longer angrier letter back and immediately after masturbates, having
an extraordinary orgasm.
This begins a
series of letter where William clearly looking for companionship bears his soul,
though he never reveals if he's killed anyone. As he never confesses Hannah
feels compelled to keep writing him – because surely he'll tell her and then
she can reveal the truth and she'll get the fame she deserves. She ends up
doing an inadequate job when it comes to funding an event at her non-profit and
she spends more time dealing with William then her first chance to succeed on
her own. When Hannah is asked what her goals are later on she can't come up
with an answer. She starts blaming her parents for putting to much pressure on
her when there's a drought in letters from William. She's falling down a rabbit
hole and there are some people who warn her about it – and she doesn't like how
it 'dampens my joy.' The irony is that for all her inside information on
William she's no closer to finding out the truth of anyone else in the forum –
who she hasn't told she's writing them.
When Hannah
loses her job rather then look for a new one, she maxes out her credit cards
and takes a trip to Georgia for the trial of William Thompson.
At that time,
I wasn't worried that he would kill me. I worried only that he wouldn't find me
beautiful when he finally saw me in prison. Like I , Hannah, would be
disappointing to him, an accused serial killer. In retrospect, it was possible
the order of my fears was misguided.
The second
part of the novel deals with Hannah in Georgia at the trial of William. She
spends the entire trial looking at the back of his head and listening to the
prosecution and the defense lay out the case. She takes notes measuring his
guilt and innocence, all of which are undercut by how she thinks William is
handsome. She meets Dotty and Lauren both of whom are equally obsessed with
William. She knows that both these women are obsessed with him but she needs
company. Dotty is older then her and has separated from her husband because of
this; Lauren is in college and has already fallen in love with a former killer.
By this point
Hannah has noticed some of the other cliques that have formed, most notably the
friends and family of the killer's victim. They avoid her because they can tell
she's one of those women. Anna can't help but complain to William about how she
wishes they were friendlier. She gets involved with the Thompson family by
accident, claiming she's trying to find proof that William is guilty, perhaps
unaware that she may be looking to see her future in-laws. Hannah is close to
giving up when a new set of letters come from William. Again he never comes
close to telling her whether he's innocent or guilty.
Eventually
she meets Mark and Cindy, who are among the wealthy elite in Atlanta and
Willam's brother Bentley, who's married with two children. Eventually she gets
close to Bentley, in part because he thinks his brother's guilty, mostly
because he looks like William and he calls her pretty.
By the
halfway point of the novel Coryell plays her greatest joke yet. William is
opening up to her and telling her how important she is to him and how much she
means to him. He's finally becoming the kind of man she claims she's always
wanted. But that's not the best joke; the joke is that by this time Hannah is
pouring over these notes, hoping for a hint that if he gets out, the first
thing he'll do is murder her.
William wrote
all the things I'd wanted men to tell me for years and it left me with the same
sensation I had when I finally purchased a food item that I was craving, only
to discover what I wanted at all. I wanted him to tell me about his pain, his
violence, who had hurt hum and who he hurt in return.
She writes a
long letter to him, which I assume she never sends because she crosses out all
of the parts that have to do with her increasingly violent (and hysterical) desires.
The trial comes to an end and then for reasons I won't go into, William is
found not guilty. This actually bothers Hannah more than anything else because
as she puts it "it was like every other relationship I've ever had."
Then William
shows up at her hotel room, tells her how much she means to him, and proposes
to her. Hannah is disappointed because he isn't there to kill her.
Now we enter
the third and final part of the novel and I'll finally start becoming vague,
not so much not to spoil the reveal but rather the jokes which are among the
funniest – and darkest in their entire book.
Immediately
after this Hannah and William have sex and Hannah is disappointed because
"I waited for the turn when he went from man to murderer. It never
came." William makes it clear he wants to give her everything and he's
wealthy enough and privileged enough to do so. What he doesn't know is that
Hannah wants him to kill her and he keeps putting it off. Hannah keeps on
writing her notebook, trying to argue that everything he does including their
sex life is evidence of his guilt. When she's alone in the house she finds a
group of letters written by countless other women who have basically
alternating between what Hannah feels now and what she did then. She writes a
list of their names saying she's worried about them going missing or 'if he was
engaged in a type of epistolary adultery'. She can't tell the difference
between real evidence and actual one, which demonstrates she's not good at
investigating either.
Obviously
this novel ends with Hannah face to face with the killer, though whether he is
William or not I will leave to you to find out. Both William and the entire
family have secrets, none of which are that original. That, I imagine is the
point of the reveal; this is a story about sticking to the cliches of the
format from the perspective of one of 'those women'. What I will say is that
Hannah ends up getting what she deserves, which as we all know is rarely the
same thing as what we desire. In Hannah's case its fitting.
Coryell lives
in St. Paul and while she has written stories, essays and poems, Love
Letters to a Serial Killer is her debut novel. It was published two years
ago and it's a hell of a way to make a literary debut. I've more than read my
share of great first novels from writers and I've passed on quite a few
recommendations to my readers here but Love Letters is by far the most
fun I've had in a while reading. Not in the way of thriller but in a perfect
mix of both black comedy, true crime and the kind of woman that (as another
favorite of mine Jesse Q. Sutanto said in her blurb) "you don't know
whether to shake or hug her." I spent much of the novel wanting to shake
her but considering Hannah probably likes that kind of thing, maybe its one and
the same.
I disagree
with Sutanto about a need for a sequel to this book – if there's one thing we
know, it’s becoming a franchise frequently ruins the power of the original.
What I do know is that I would send love letters to Coryell any time, telling
her I can't wait for her next book. I hope she writes all of us back with
another gem…soon.
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