Sunday, April 23, 2023

Constant Reader Book of the Month April 2023: Tell Me No Lies by Andrea Contos

 

I made the mistake of starting Tell Me No Lies at roughly 1:30 AM. When I looked up an hour had gone by. I knew I had to get some sleep but I was loathe to stop reading even for as much as a night.

Even when I devour a book at a rapid pace, it still takes me anywhere from ten days to two weeks to get through a book. I think I finished Tell Me No Lies in five days, give or take. This did not so much have to do with the plot or the prose (though both are superb) but because I kept turning pages because I kept hoping that I could find some way to comprehend the character of Nora Linden, the character who is the center of the story and who puts everything in motion. I was unsatisfied in that regard when the novel ended, perhaps because I’ve never encountered a character truly like Nora in all my years of reading fiction. I’ve run into a few version of her in TV and the movies but we never understood why they did what they did. Maybe in Nora’s case it’s because she doesn’t understand herself.

The plot involves the story of the Linden sisters, Nora and Sophie. The story is split between Nora and Sophie’s retelling of events: Nora is giving a ‘confession’ of what happened to her in the past; Sophie is dealing with them in the present. The sisters were close growing up, but then Nora committed an action that led to their parents divorcing and Sophie has never forgiven her. Both of them are separately trying to find their ways out of the small town they live in: Nora is determined to use her mind to get her to Brown; Sophie is determined to get out because of her dancing, mainly through a summer intensive. Sophie’s boyfriend Garrett disappeared one night with Nora. The night that happened, Sophie lied to protect her sister. Garrett has been missing ever since and Sophie is convinced Nora knows what happened. She’s right.

That’s enough of the plot. Nora Linden is unlike any teenage character I’ve read about in YA fiction or indeed any fiction. There is something clearly missing from her that all of us don’t even think about twice. Sophie says at one point that people are fascinated by her superpower: Nora doesn’t need anyone. She’s closest to getting her sister than anyone, but she misses the point: Nora doesn’t want anyone or anything.

Nora is clearly a great student with high academic achievements. But its clear from the beginning that’s the only thing she’s good it. She can not comprehend social norms. She doesn’t go to party, doesn’t understand the draw of sporting events, can’t comprehend why human connections are important. She has friends but they are only on her terms. Adam, who is practically her brother, clearly loves her but she doesn’t think its worth the effort to love him because she thinks love is a waster. She loves Sophie but her love takes the form of protecting her rather than telling her so. Nora can not comprehend other people and does not think she needs to make the effort.

Some might want to say Nora’s on the spectrum. That’s not even close. Nora has a code of behavior which she lives by and can not comprehend why anyone else wouldn’t. Everything is set into motion because Nora and Garrett have been accused of cheating. Nora refuses to accept the punishment and is puzzled when Garrett does not raise an objection. She sees he is nervous and is determined to learn every one of Garrett’s secrets. Nora has a judgment of a moral code that everyone else should follow but feels no scruples in violating it when it pleases her. She is considers trustworthy by the principal, but the minute she is left alone in his office she chooses to hack into his computer. According to her, it was foolish of him. Nora has broken the bond between her and Sophie because she thinks the world should have her and not him. As she becomes aware that Garrett – and many other students – are engaged in a complex cheating ring, she is infuriated not so much because they are cheating but because they make her hard work look bad. At one point she is told by Garrett that Sophie is part of this cheating ring and she refuses to believe because Sophie would never cheat. Fifty pages earlier, Sophie has learned of this ring and her first reaction is why no one told her about it.

Nora spends the entire novel degrading all of the villainous men and women she meets in it for being unthinking and selfish. She seems entirely unaware that she is exactly like them. Late in the novel we learn that the Linden’s divorce occurred as a result of her father’s infidelity. Nora learned about it, and its never clear as to whether her mother knew about and let nothing happen. Nora seems bothered by it because her father was spending money on gifts to his mistress and more importantly, draining Nora’s college fund. She sets a plan in motion where she calls her parents and tells them that Sophie is missing just so she can expose her father’s lies to her mother. It’s clear even the infidelity and the lies didn’t matter as much as the fact that her father got in the way of ‘the Plan’.

She genuinely doesn’t seem to comprehend why Sophie blames her so much for breaking up their family. At one point she argues whether the ends justify the means, which is ironic because Nora doesn’t even have her own ends. At one point she actually tells us that she doesn’t believe in finish lines. Her plan seems determined on getting into Brown. She doesn’t seem to have any goals aside from that, besides a vague desire to get rich. At one point the most emotion she reveals is that she doesn’t seem to understand who she is without her plan.

Sophie is damaged much the same way Nora is but I think at the end of the day she is far healthier emotionally then her sister. She has friends she is close to; she is capable of love and eventually she begins to follow the path to figure out the truth behind what Garrett and Nora were up to. Her bigger problem is the enormous inferiority complex that her family has burdened her with. She has a clear memory of showing her parents her report card in second grade and hearing her father say: “Well, at least she can dance.” She has clung to Nora in a way since then but she can’t comprehend why her sister can’t at least pretend to say something comforting or warm. In a sense everything Sophie does in the novel is because of the path that Nora has laid down for her, which Nora thinks is a way to show how much she loves her sister, by proving that she is stronger and smarter than she thinks.

In a way that’s comforting. The problem is Nora genuinely seems to think that atones for everything she has done as a result. Nora’s actions are clearly guided by some moral certainty – at one point a friend of hers actually says: “Failure is not an option for Nora Linden.” Nora no doubts takes it without irony. The problem is Nora’s actions throughout the story are so locked on course that a certain point you realize that the best explanation for her behavior is that she is a sociopath. Near the end of the novel (I won’t reveal under what conditions exactly) someone tells her that she has done everything she does to prove “how fucking superior you are…how you’re so goddamn noble and the rest of us are liars and cheaters?” This causes Nora to collapse emotionally for the first time in the novel because she knows he isn’t wrong.

Nora frames her narrative as a ‘confession’ but it is only in the legal sense of the word. She is not penitent nor does she feel truly unhappy about the manipulations she has done and the lives she has laid waste to. As a result of her actions to this point three people have died, one by accident and two more or less by her hand. (Again the reader should learn who they are by herself.) The most she says in the final statement is: “I’m not proud of those things. I don’t regret them either.” And even when she finally reveals the truth about her actions, her regrets are solely limited to Sophie. There is not even a trace of sympathy for her mother in regards to the horror show she has put her through over the last several months. Her final actions show that she thinks that only her sister deserves to know the truth. If she considers her mother at all, she only does so by deciding to leave that burden on her – and given everything she’s already put her sister through, I find that cruel in itself.

I have not truly revealed most of the plot in Tell Me No Lies. I don’t think I will. Much of the story is truly thrilling in the parallel investigations that both Nora and Sophie end up taking, particularly because Nora while clearly a genius has no understanding of human impulses or behavior and as a result she barely avoids death several times in the novel. Her desires to keep her secrets or trust anyone repeatedly lead her into deeper danger and an innocent woman dies as a result of it. Sophie is not nearly as smart as her sister, but because of her ability to get a clear read on people – and ironically because she is too emotional – she has a far better acuity when it comes to the people she can’t trust. Nora is also clearly unable to read the people she considers dangerous and keeps making the same mistakes. Because Sophie is more capable of emotional connections, she has someone she can trust when she realizes the truth and comes up with a plan.

At the end of the day, even had none of the events that transpired in Tell Me No Lies taken place, Sophie would have been far more likely to have a happier and healthier future than Nora ever could. Whether or not Sophie became a successful dancer, I think she had far more emotional capabilities than Nora ever did, and is far more willing to love and trust people that Nora ever could. The final page of the novel reveals that Sophie has come to emotionally grow and change at a level we ever saw Nora of in the entire novel.

As for Nora’s future, I don’t think even if she’d made into Brown she would have been a success. She has no understanding of people, no ability to handle social functions, no true understanding of what it means to love someone in a way that really matters. Everything that happens in the novel tells me that despite all of the consequences the biggest sign of growth she’s managed to do is to ‘let go of high school and college for a while.” The thing is, even after everything that has happened her actions demonstrate that she is locked into the idea that the ends still do justify the means. I can only think of two characters in fiction that have that kind of thinking – and neither of them are comforting role models for Nora.

One is Jack Bauer. The other is Dexter Morgan. The reader can decide at the end which is more likely for Nora  but viewers of either show know neither had a happy ending.

 

 

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